Blog virgin

So I get the bright idea that I may have something to say.  I think I know my way around a computer, but when it comes to blogs, I was clueless.  When in doubt, ask someone who knows their shit.  So Ron helped me set this up.  He knows his shit.  Thank you, Ron.  My thinking behind this whole concept was to have an outlet for all the crap that’s been floating around in my head these last few months.  I have become an ecclectic grouping of so many things in this life so far.  Wife, mother, career woman, tree hugger, artist, friend, door mat, idiot.  It seems harder to sort out what I am doing, where I am going.  I am waking up every morning trying to figure out what I want to be today.  Fuck the “what do you want to be when you grow up”idea… what do I want to be today?????  This would be easier to explain if a) I were middle aged b) if I had an affair and bought a sporty car or c) if there were truly anything wrong with my life.  But here I sit, 33, with a great marriage, healthy smart and funny kids, good job (albiet boring at times), great friends, and a new house, and I am waiting for someone to knock on my door and tell me this is all someone else’s life, thank you for standing in, you can go back to your own life now (wherever that is).  This is kind of depressing for my first post here, but I promise it will get better.  Taking a glimpse into my life is like watching the best plotted action movie with sidebars of the Jerry Springer Show thrown in for good measure.  Only in the movie, I’d like to be thinner….